self harm

its been a while since i last posted and honestly it because i didn't know what to write but i have had a slight burst of inspiration. 
allot of the girls (and few boys) at my school are really insecure about themselves, i have to be honest again here when i say i am too. last year allot of people (yes including me) started to become really suicidal and self harm, it was a scary time and we were too scared to tell anyone including our parents. we would all tell each other like it was no big deal, until one day our parents found out some of us got into trouble which made us self harm more. my mum was angry and upset but she knew what i was going through as she used to self harm herself when she was 16.
with allot of support even though we are still really insecure we have almost all stopped cutting and self harming. (that's my little story over with)
what I'm trying to say is if your a teenager out there or a adult it doesn't matter if you do self harm its really bad and sooner or later someone is going to find out, i made a self harming video not too long ago and i put it on facebook. my mum told me to take it into school so i did and it was shown in a self harming Assembly, i was proud in that moment and it boosted my self Esteem so now if i know people who still do self harm i always try to help them quite.
obviously some people don't want to stop and that's fine its there life in the end but if they do keep going how long will it be until the blade slips in too deep and they loose the one life they have? how would you feel if you were a parent and you walked into your child's bedroom and saw them in a pool of blood, dead? you would feel awful the amount of questions going through your mind in that spit second would be un-real.
basically what i'm trying to say without going on too much (which i am known for doing) is to say self harming is awful. it lowers self-esteem, it leaves horrible scars all over your body and eventually it will kill you! please if there's anyone out there who does self harm or cut please stop! i stopped, most of my friends have stopped and if we raise awareness of it maybe the whole world might see how pointless it is and stop. can you imagine that a world without self harm, it would be pretty damn amazing! please help raise awareness of self harm and the danger it causes to Innocent lives everywhere! ill post the link to the video in the comments when i get it up on my youtube channel again.
thanks guys,
Emma <3

School

School... 11 years of our lives that we spend 6 hours a day learning things we will hardly use when we grow up. 

I get the whole primary school thing where we learn to count to ten and learn to read and write but to be honest after that it's abit of a waist of time. 

I don know about anyone else but I come home some days and I have 2 or 3 hours homework about useless things like write 4 pages about Macbeth that we will never need in later life or calculate the mass of the sun! If we really wanted to calculate the mass of the sun we would look online for crying out loud! 

I do like school sometimes don't get me wrong but it's just so boring! Like the other day we were sat in class and even my math teacher said he doesn't know why we have to study algebra, if anyone does know please tell me. I would much rather be sat listening to music than my teachers and my friends lies that I constantly get piles of when I'm at school, right now actually I don't even know if I have any friends. I was really angry because of everyone spreading stuff about each other and I sort of flipped out and now I don't think I can face them on Monday, but my mum will always make me go to school especially with my GCSEs coming up (another pointless thing in my eyes) so there's no way out ill just have to do what my dad always said and face the music. I'm going to leave this here because I feel like I'm going on a bit now haha xx 

About me

hi there! my name is Emma Bramley. i am 13 years old and i live in a little village in england. I decieded to start making a blog when i started reading zoe sugg's (zoella) from youtube and thought it would be pretty cool to strat a blog of my own.

i used to have a diary when i was little but i never kept it up to date (oops) even though when i look back at it now it makes me laugh. my mum was always telling me about her diarys she made when she was little but i guessed that was like 40 years ago and its not really that big anymore.

i am sortof a social network geek (haha) i have almost every social networking site on the planet facebook, twitter, tumblr, youtube, younow, instagram and now this (woo)

i was never very populat in primary school and to be honest im now in secondary school either, i have friends but not very many so i turn to the internet and music to keep me company. im a singer song writer but when im at school i never sing i hardly ever talk but when i do im really quite loud and i think i scare people away :( not good.

i get really bad anxiety and i have done since i was 7 it really did concern me when i was younger but it doesnt as much any more, i think ive got used to it but i will post a full blog about dealing with it in a few days or weeks :)

so thats a little bit about me i hope i keep this up rather than writing one blog and then never writing again and i hope if your reading this you like the rest of my posts! bye xxx